Wednesday, September 23, 2009

I had no idea

I had no idea I'd be violently awakened from my sleep that morning. As I rushed to the porcelain throne, careful not to bump my toes, I wondered why? I had salad for lunch and no dinner. As I hung there waiting for the inevitable, it stopped as suddenly as it had started though it left me a bit woozy. I was not able to get back to sleep, just couldn't shake that strange feeling in the pit of my stomach...

I had no idea my cell phone would ring that morning, no one calls me at work.
I had no idea I forgot my charger so my cell battery was dead.
I had no idea I would be asked to come to Mama's house as soon as I could.
I had no idea August 27, 2009 would change my life.

I had no idea the call I missed was my mother calling for help.
I had no idea what the news at Mama's house would be so bad.
I had no idea that my baby sister, probably at the moment I was awakened, lay on the seat of her car shot three times.

I had no idea there would never be another chance to right wrongs.
I had no idea there would never be another chance to say let me help you.
I had no idea there would never be another chance to love you or I'm proud of you.

I had no idea God would touch me and strengthen me from the inside out that morning.
I had no idea how important it would be for me to be so strong over the days to follow.
I have no idea how long it's going to take for my feet to finally touch the ground again. When will this stop being a bad dream.

Keep stitchin'
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